The Journey From Within: A Spiritual Journey – The Unknown Universe

I have been looking for my spiritual journey for some time now. It began as this strange feeling that jumped to the forefront and spoke to me from within; it was an undeniable voice that tried to awaken and inform me about my soul’s purpose on Earth.

The voice is deeply within waiting to be heard. It is like something that urges me to pay attention, something greater than I have ever known and ready to give me an answer that I have longed and hoped for. This feeling, this innate power, never has any fancy name, nor is it an impulse or desire. It is neither my DNA nor my genetic blueprint.  

At the beginning, I did not really comprehend all this. Or perhaps I recognized what it was and I just ignored it, because I felt that this was beyond my comprehension. Although I may have investigated the feeling, how can a person like me know my soul’s purpose? I tried to suppress it; however, the feeling did not fade away. It simply grew stronger. It was like an old desire suddenly remerging again until the answer comes and it transforms the old desire into a truthful reality.

Since the voice has contacted me I have had a blissful and pleasant feeling inside, and I am trying to discover a method to understand the feeling in the same concrete way that I recognize worldly events.

With that said, gradually I forgot about the feeling. As soon as I had forgotten about this inner feeling, it went beyond time and space and became louder and clearer. It would not stop speaking with me. Feeling desperate, I was determined to find out a way to seek an answer. Unfortunately, with a lack of resources, it was difficult to fulfill any inner needs. Not giving up, I was determined to look for solutions. I started to search into other resources by reading books about the true purpose of life on Earth.    

The self-help book talked about sages who had journeyed far beyond the confines of the Universe and came back to help others find their spiritual journey. This information gave me temporary comfort, and I used it to calm my inner urge to resist. I knew it was only a short-term solution, and it does not take long for those restless feeling to recur. I continued to fight with my internal state, feeling neither tranquility nor contentment. Though it did not offer any solution or relief, I could clearly hear it calling.

I could not tolerate any more of this. I felt pushed to look into this unknown inner place. I began a journey to discover something I had never explored before in the core of my soul. I came to realize the truth about myself—the truth of where I actually originated.

No journey is easy, but uncertainty is worse. I started with a single step and a simple choice. This is a difficult task with an uncertain goal. The Universe is vast. Although finding this unknown place is challenging, it is still possible. Everything seems to obstruct my investigation. However, I could not help but fight the idea that my mission was impossible. The journey was full of confusion, but I did not want to abandon it. The road began to open up to me, going to place far from where I began. It looked as if I discovered something; however, it was not so!      

I thought I had found my answer, but not yet! You know there is something missing here! Ennui set in; I was pushed to the floor and felt set back. I got up and immediately doubled my efforts to continue where I ended. Although one part of me wanted to pause and relax before I continued, I urged myself to keep looking and move toward the source that would aid me in my journey.

I was exhausted and worn out; I gave in and accepted a calm feeling, and I fell asleep. Suddenly, I had a strange feeling: I walked through a tunnel, and a clear white light flashed in my eyes. Out of curiosity, I walked closer. In a moment, I saw that it was the other end of the tunnel. I walked toward it; somehow I thought that going through the tunnel’s end would make me feel different about the present world I dwell in. I quickly decided to stay in my world, though. Being in the tunnel allowed me to feel an internal stillness; after one second, I believed that the other side was certainly calm and beautiful. I took a moment to imagine this, and then I stepped back into my own universe. I compared it to the other side of the tunnel, which definitely would have taken me further from this world. I can pass onto the light, which means I move toward the unknown. 

I have, however, decided to go on. The choice was not simple. There is a present urge against my decision: Where the tunnel will lead me is not like the Universe I dwelled in before. My decision is firm; nothing can change my mind. I am concerned that every gain I make is threatened by the fear that if I stop now, I will fall back into the familiar world. 

Then, as I considered everything, it transformed in slow motion and a feeling of unbelievable calmness emerged. I took it easy, let go, and surrendered.

As I listened to it, I felt as if the environment had no motion. I looked around and saw a beautiful flower and a silvery stream shimmering in the sun; I heard the sound of waterfalls. The scenery was beyond my imagination. The river had many other streams branching off and merging into one. As I walked my eyes were wide open, and I realized that this beautiful place would lead me back to the tunnel and the place that I was seeking. This knowledge empowered me and opened my mind as I began to see more clearly beyond merely my search.    

In the process of struggling and winning, despite obstacles in my path, I have had profound realizations and experiences. I have overcome any temptations and fears. On the other hand, I have to face new challenges if I chose to stay in my new world. My life could be peerless if I chose to live in a strange world. I would be able to move forward, especially if my experiences changed my perspective and allowed me to perceive and realize my potential. Fear is the biggest enemy of my mind. Of all the obstacles in my life, fear causes the greatest barrier. Luckily, I have overcome this major and hostile fear and these experiences have empowered me and strengthened my faith in God.                

As I fell back into the physical world, I began to accept my reality and surrender. I began to perceive the world differently. I felt that I had a purpose and was being called to transform myself.  

I know that this purpose must be fulfilled, despite my difficulties and perplexities.

I began to search for any related information that would help me find the path that was calling me. The problem with my understanding arose again. It allowed me to comprehend, but it also caused me to question. This doubt prevented me from trusting what I had experienced and learned. I could not tell whether the sense was real or simply my imagination. It seemed as if this realization might not have been coming from me; in fact, my awareness seemed to suggest that there was nothing different about it at all!

I understand that my instinct does not come from the physical world, so it makes sense that my brain was trying to explain it by creating something I could understand. In this case, it led me to believe that there was something mysterious and different about this physical world. I began to understand it, accept it, and follow it—until the day I realized what it truly was. It was more of a feeling than anything else. It told me not to question, but to carry on and to continue. My inner calling was directing me to the source where I began. I struggled against this and felt an increasing urge to give up.

Just at the moment I was going to give up, a strange feeling overcame me. I saw a beautiful, vivid light flash in front of me with brilliant colors. This flash kept turning and turning; the light was so bright that it radiated over everything. The entire room was reflected in this supernatural beauty. 

Then I listened quietly to my contemplations, trying to become conscious of everything around and inside of me. 

It is like this feeling inside of me is evolving. It was set into motion and it got stronger, and I realized that the inner voice was from the Source. It was God’s voice from within talking to me. Suddenly, I was filled with a feeling of great gratitude, joy, and peace.

Now I have found the Source.

Even though I recognize the inner voice, I continue asking questions. The voice is distant. Experience tells me that in this physical world, if I perceive it, then I believe—but this notion is not manifested in the infinite realm. Everything is infinite: Time is timeless and space is limitless. Now I like to find out more. I like to perceive the Divine Kingdom of the Universe, and I would like to understand the wisdom of God’s world.

Now I know there is something beyond this physical life, and there is a reason for my existence. However, receiving the voice from within is merely just the beginning of my guiding journey, which I accepted with bliss and joyfulness. I know now I am here to serve my life’s purpose. What I did not know before was what my life’s purpose was or exactly where the Source was coming from. Indeed, from the time I was a teenager, I have been aware of it; God has always been in my heart. Until now, God has rarely opened up to me. I now feel a sense of purpose: I am connected to the Source, and the Source is trying to reveal to me the vary nature of my being. The choices I make are to be united with the Source, to help me dedicate my life to serve God’s will.

The more I listen to it, the more I am becoming strengthened by it. The Source provides an instinctual sense of truth. I know that the Source will lead me to knowledge that will expand my awareness. I now also know that I must purify my thought and enhance my ability to comprehend what the Source is communicating to me.

In doing so, I need to train my mind to be aware when the Source is communicating. I should not ignore the message or let the message escape me. I am becoming aware that the message is always there, eagerly and patiently waiting for me to tap into the Source. I know I have abandoned my instinct on many occasions in the past due to lack of knowledge and problems or difficulties which emerged. Now my path is clearer and the situation has changed. I will transcend difficulties and problems with triumph and transform ennui into treasures. I am going to carry on with my journey. I know that the Source will support and be part of me, and I have chosen to listen, so that the Source will fulfill its purpose and aid me in achieving my heart’s desire and my life purpose. 

I follow my heart’s desire.

It has been a very long time since I had this feeling, but now it is time to acknowledge it. I remember that it was like this the very first time; I really connected with the Source. The Source has a relationship with me, and I am beginning to see the quiet way of the Source, and recognize the subtle feelings I never experienced until I heard the voice from within. 

My purpose ties me strongly to who I am, what I am, and my infinite being and higher consciousness.   

It is true that I have forgotten who I am and that I only live my current life in this body. Indeed, I was wrong. I may have lived as many life forms with different bodies, but I simply forgot about it when I came to this new body now. Until I awaken, I will never know. My Source is trying to reach out to me and show that I am a spirit and the body is only temporary. I have the power and knowledge to go beyond that which is merely temporary.  

I obtained the information from a higher consciousness within myself. This higher consciousness existed within a spirit world.  In other words, the Source tried to convey a message to me from the inner realm. I connected with the Source so that my higher consciousness would receive support and become particularly useful in extending my awareness of the oneness that I am.  It was a driving force, and encouraged me to live. The Source was showing me that I am an infinite being from the void of emptiness.

I need to discover what is required in order for me to fulfill my sole purpose, before I take a return trip to the nothingness.

To understand the Source is to make sure that the higher consciousness within the self will last to the next level, and perhaps even return to this physical world in a new life.  Life is a continuum, and it will never cease.  However, it is not easy, but a difficult, yet great thing.  There is so much physical discomfort, diseases, pollution, global warming, and war in the world that exists. It is unknown how long this Universe will last.  How far am I willing to try, and what is my current reality? The part of me that is allowing, surrendering, and a driving force connects to a spiritual life that is an expectation of a God-realization. That is why the Source tries to find a way to connect to me, and to push my higher self.  My soul continues to expand on its natural course. It is not easy, however, to understand the message from my soul.  The way that my mind is used to thinking in is logical, and the message coming from the Source is beyond my conscious capability. I understand that I do not need any scientific method to prove it, but simply to believe, trust, and follow.

 At this level, I received information from the Divine force that helped me interpret it so that my mind could understand the message from the inspiration.  The communication obtained from the Source lead to the sudden awakening of my true being.  This was the intention of the Source.  All I need to do is use the tools and knowledge that the Source found for me so that I will know exactly what to do.  

The Source knew what I wanted and assisted me to build a better translating device so I could hear the messages directly. It applied its own brand of translating the messages into words I could understand.  The encouragement I received was from the Source. It was the Source who utilized this additional need to contact me to find the right track and apply this invisible wisdom. I understand the messages are from the Source by the feeling in my heart.  It is a quiet voice that I know.  Again, the inner knowing does not need an impressive name or frame.  It is my inner being that makes it known to me.  I hardly can find an appropriate word to describe my inner thoughts.  I simply call it an innate feeling.

When I encounter a sense or an instinct, it is usually connected with my sixth sense.  The sixth sense makes it easy to communicate with the Source. My infinite soul is connected to my sixth sense so that the Source can send its message.

I want to connect to my infinite soul and awaken. I must begin to trust enough to leave the ground.

My soul left my body. I started traveling to this dimensional place where the infinite soul dwells.  My infinite soul carries memories of my previous lives, but it also contains knowledge that existed in the three-dimensional being.  

I could not have full awareness of my three-dimensional self because I lived in a mortal world.  When my awareness is absorbed into my present consciousness, then I will be awakened.

I listen to the Source. I also accept the existence of the Source that administers everything.  This means that what I have recognized makes sense to me: part of me is separated from the Source, but my soul is always connected to the Source.  The more I delve into it, the more I realize that the truth will be revealed to me.  My whole perspective on reality is changing because I am living in a higher level of consciousness; that of God consciousness.  The deepest part of my consciousness has begun to take control and help lift me into the unknown of the Divine Universe.

The original endeavor was to provide a clarity of thought that would make the connection to my infinite self stronger.  The event triggered in my inner being will help me find my sole purpose.  To achieve this goal, I am making a conscious alignment with the Source, and the Source will lead me toward it; I also confirm and follow my instinct.

The moment when I accepted the Source, I became aligned and knew that I was created as a piece of God. I am always a spiritual being.  However, I must direct my energy into transforming the collected consciousness, visions, contemplations, and feelings; these are not easily understood by most people because they do not share the same inspiration. This planet will be influenced by the collective consciousness, and then I will be pushed along and lose my track. Awareness has bestowed me with strength.  Awareness makes it possible to stand against the waves, and achieve my destiny.

I have a different purpose in this Universe.

However, since I breathe from the Source, and am illuminated by the Source, a message deep in the skies has showed me this: in my heart, I know that I have a sole purpose and a mission that I must fulfill, and that my soul never dies.  

Perhaps you have the same drive as me. That is why you are reading this message and beginning to understand the importance of being awake to your inner self. Take a deeper breath and go deeper into the feeling. I know you have the same mission.  Let us continue our journey toward consciousness.

Most spiritual people serve this earth to promote healing. I feel that the life force of this Universe is alive.  Given that, I encourage goodwill and the sustainability of life in this Universe and my concern is becoming stronger.  I have passed my greatest fears and greatest temptations; now I extend my quest to fulfill my life purpose. I shall never let fear compromise all our exploring and we shall return where we started someday.

Universal problems can take many forms and structures.  These problems may be caused by the ethnic conflict of a nation gone to war, by a tyrant, or by weapons of mass destruction. These destroy many lives.

The purposes of the awakened person are to sustain life and encourage God’s peace so that life will continue and prosper.

However, there are respectable people out there seeking the same purpose that will help create a collective power and benefit humanity.  They are working on a different level of reality.  In the mortal world, some of them may function to protect life, but eventually they move on toward spirituality.  They are old souls; they have been here many times. They have acquired enough information from the Source to come back to the physical world and continue their journey. They have used their experiences and expertise to help others; this process is known as reincarnation.  The concept of reincarnation is an older spirit reincarnated into a new body. They are able to keep their knowledge in their new life.  The purpose of reincarnation is to pursue God’s mission to help others to find their soul’s purpose and to awaken!

                                                         By
                                                  Herman Wong